Work

So I was just applhying for some jobs when I came to the realization that this is embarrassing and humiliating.  I can't work for a resturaunt I should be eating at.  I guess Ihave to keep in mind that it's not everyday that you get screwed over like I did and need to work a job like a server just to get by.  It's hard because the guys would love this and gang up on me and make me out to be a little bitch or to be their slave and they get to try and be better than me too.  I hate it when those type of people are ivolved in my life it makes it to be a headache and it's not pleasant dealing with those type of people.  I think I'll stick to taking my thinsg off the shelves and selling them on the street corner.  IT's relly the only option I have cuase also it's next to impossible for me to get hired due to nobody wants to work with me and nobdy wants to hire me for I am better than them.  And then you get the ones that want you under them so they can be better than you, well so they think,  like Gurpreety he wanted me working for him so badly I hurt.  he so wanted o have me under his human dn control  me wihth money. 

So speakin =gof east Indians they followed me round he proince and framed me fro drug dealing.  They also used me for a cocaine connection from down south in Mexico.  I never got paid for this nor did I get any recognition or offers to be paid for the stuff I've done such as take the heat for them , lead the cops on a wild goose chase while they are dealing behind my back making it look like me.  II'd be happy to bust them with you cause I hate them fro setting mup my life for failure just s they ca nsllmore drugs.  I also advertised their drugs too.  I think I was supposed to be set up as the Drug King Pin twice now.  Toby fucked me over and then Bruce fucked me over and both of them didn't even mention what was going on or what I should be doing or what I could be doing or things like that.  Bruce did offer me to smuggle for him, lol are you kidding me?!?!  Me smuggle for him?  he was setting me up to be arrested.  just like one of them tried setting me up fro the murder of chris hetu who I think is impersonating me in the USA.  I am glad I didn't take that job smuggling cause I'd be in jail right now for lord knows how long.  That's a scary thought spending time in jail for that.  I hate jail and don't ever want to go back.  I should have never set foot in a jail cell but I was set up every time and arrested everytime and tired to throw me in jail every time.  Scarring memories but i'll get over it.  part of why I don't trust the police cause they thought I was this horrible drug dealer so they in turn set me up beucase they couldn't find anything on me to arrest me for so they set me up for things like assault and theft.  Harsh cause I never had a criminal charge before I stepped foot in Vancouver. 

Losing it

I better be who I think I am cause I'd snap if I get embarrassed one more time about this.  The worst thing is not knowing who you are and when you guess several times over and over and get It wrong it gets embarrassing as well it gets tiring not knowing.  I said  I was a Rocekfeller last year some time and when I did it felt like a million spirts were attacking me.  I guess all the jealous people in the afterlife were coming after me cause the Rockefellers have a monopoly on most everything so people get jealous.  Christ I guess that's why I'm a Haiste.  Makes sense.. I don't really care if people think I'm this or that btu maybe for my own protection it's better if I'm a Haiste.  Although that associates me with Toby and Wendy and cliff so I don't know what's worse.  I hate being associated with them and I also don't want random dumbasses coming after me just because I own all this shit.. I now see why there's jim and bill and steve so on and so forth for protection.  Otherwise it's just simply oil money and bank money I am going to be set for ever.  As much as I need money now I guess I can wait like my sister said suck it up. a little harsh but I can see where she is jealous of me as is harry and will.  I did have the worst life out of any of them living up north and I guess so everyone would accept me gettinga good life for once cause life sucked having nothing but fake people in your life being used to do something big time cause no one else in this world could have done it and survivied they'd be dead for sure, only I can awake from the dead and not die.  DId it three times already before it stopped I guess it's expensive to get someone killed in a hospital to make it look like natural causes.  Toby and Cliff and Wendy chose the right place to finish me off in they knew everyone would be stupid and jealous of me so it was the perfect place to find people dumb enough to come after me for very little money.  Thye knew that Vancouver is dumb enough that they could get away with murder and no one would suspect them cause they would just simply lie and that's it.  They knew it would be next to impossible to have me resuced legally cause they are so dumb here that they refuse to belive anything but a photo id and a birth certificate cause that means it's real !  holy fuck some people are so stupid its unbelievable.  It blows my mind how a human race could be this dumb.  I hope everyone is listeneing cause this is world wide and you should be embarrassed.  I nkew my whole life something was wrong but couldn't find anyone to ask the right questions about and didn't know what I could do cause nobody would help me find out the truth had no material to work with until I came down here and had the police  basically help me figure out the truth cause of them coming after me it helped me put pieces of a puzzle together that made sense.  It was a scary truth.  The police still don't believe I have been kidnapped or placed here for a certain reason.  THey still think I'm a drug dealer cause I hope I think what I think I do.  just to keep up with the jonses.  hopefully cause that would be too scary if it were true. Wow tht's embarrassing I wish I didn' say some things now hahha. fuck me everything?had no idea wow tutty cala took over Vancouver for me.  didn't they.  thos fuckign habib's took over from the china men.  why is it asia keeps taking over my city cause I'm asleep!?!  Tuty cala crossed the line and just basically stole the city form me how many dumb people work for the city?  Just because someone took over the DTES that means you take over the whole city?  THis shitty city is run on just drug money? 
I wonder what the King of Canada gets?  I wasn't told and I think they gave my shit to my fake parents for some reason.  I wonder why they did that?  I don't think people understand me either cause I don't have that problem toby keeps yelling about and wendy.  I function just fine and still take care of myself.  I choose to use out of pure boredom and to keep busy cuase all in all I can kill lik e6 hours in a day just by using. g etting money then getting it sold then getting high.. then going to the library again and again.. getting alittle sick of this life but it's better than sitting there doeing nothing but reading or twiddling my thumbsw waiting for welfare day.  I tried gettinga  job but that' doesn't pan out to well cause moet peple know who I am and woudnl't hire me for the life of me. but i'll keep trying.